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Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Where have I been?  Well of course, life on a farm and trying to work at school keeps a gal busy.   Then you throw grandbabies visiting and trying to take care of the garden into the mix and you get BUSY!  Then add a Breast Cancer Diagnosis in on top of that and that's when things just don't get done.

So now, our saga takes a turn.  We were just a retired couple enjoying ourselves and the farm, fishing a little now and then and socializing with the neighbors.  On July 18th, 2014 (my husband's birthday) I received the diagnosis of Invasive Ductal Carcinoma.  Our world flipped upside down. Our emotions were on a roller coaster.  It was difficult to grasp the diagnosis.  It is such a slow process to move through.....you feel as though your feet are being sucked in mud.  Denver and I determined that Breast Cancer isn't a medical emergency, but a mental emergency.  You just can't get anything done quickly!  It's always hurry up and wait.   You make an appointment with a Dr. but it's not for another 2 weeks.  Or you have a procedure scheduled and it's a week and a half away.  All the time you're waiting you go to the world wide web and begin searching for anything related to your diagnosis.  You literally flood your mind with information and it soon becomes an overload.   You have to walk away and take some healthy time for yourself.  Go do something that you enjoy and don't think about the dreaded cancer. 

Things are better now...we're progressing.  In another post I'll give you more information and perhaps it will help someone else.  God has been with us all the way and it's evident in the minimal treatments I've needed compared to some in our community.  It's just difficult for me as I've always been in control of everything in my life and with this.....I'm not!   I just don't like it!!!  In face, I HATE CANCER!!!